Happy to be home.

Well we've certainly been busy the last several weeks, but all of that is about to slow down. And BOY am I glad! I'm happy to be married to my wonderful husband and never have to say goodnight and walk away. He's my new pillow (*grin*). A few of my new favorite things are; cooking (for him), fixing up things around our house (with him), and talking (to him).... Not that we didn't talk before, but you see, now when I am saying things out loud in the middle of the day, he's the one who is around. I don't have to remember what it was I wanted to say because he's here NOW :) Oh how I love my husband. I can't ever see this getting old.

I know you're all dying to know what we've been up to, and how the honeymoon was... SO, let me just say that the trip was AMAZING! We snorkeled, and saw sting rays, barracudas, sea turtles, and some spongy thing that sucked our hands... We went horseback riding in the ocean and up the steep island hills. And we had some of the most amazing food I've ever tasted in my entire life. But we're glad to be home.

Today, we started one of our many "projects" around the house. We've decided to paint Husband's old bedroom furniture with a black rustic paint to get a wrought iron look from it. We started with a primer and are on hold due to the clouds looking rather full and dark. Right now it's out in the dog pen under the tarp roof (still waiting for the rain)... Better safe than sorry. I promise, promise, promise pictures are on the way... And if I can get it to work, I have another neat surprise up my sleeve!

Love to you all! I miss everyone, and enjoyed seeing you at the wedding! It couldn't have been more perfect. It was truly my fairytale come true!

Ellis Court, I'll miss you.

Today for the last time, I walked up the wooden steps to the green front door, inserted the key into its gold plated hole, and turned the knob. Bittersweet is the word. Happiness beyond my wildest imagination is all that I can feel. And yet, this sweet three story home with two dogs, a front porch swing, and four children that have become my world, will be dearly missed. I stood there for just a minute to breathe before allowing my last entrance through that door to pass too quickly.
"This is it" I thought quietly. Next week, a mere two and a half days from now, I'm going to be working from home again, and this time, the home is ours. I felt today's warm breeze hug me and know that this change is good.
Life is coming quickly. I want to embrace it. Love it. So for now, Goodbye Ellis Court, I'll be by to visit again someday.

Dear You,

It's been one of those days, I wish I were three again. Watching my little ones out in the yard, caring only about whether the other children will share the toys, or who will get the next turn climbing the tree. Can't I be three? Where did it go?

Even at three everyone can't get along. You have differences, and opinions, even at three. I wish everyone loved each other past their differences. Why not? Is that thing really important? Are you honestly the only one with life's answers? I don't think it to be so. Maybe in your mind, I am still three?

I don't want to bicker. Must we talk about this again? I feel gloomy and empty, alone even, where we are. There is no place in my life for this. The time in my life is kept for utter bliss now. Please don't invade my privacy. I am there. I am happy. Will you torment me and force sadness now?

Give it up. It is over now. I promise. I'm sorry too. I don't intend to disappoint you. You will see. Watch me grow. Watch me live. Watch me learn. Watch me soar.

All My Heart,
Me

Friends and Family

Today I've had a few minutes to skim through blog world, and my many other "web things." As I've been reading friends and family are excited about our wedding and to many I see (and feel) the bittersweet emotion running through us all. One of my dearest friends wrote a toast to my fiance and I that was beautiful. My darling mother-in-law wrote about missing her baby when he's gone and reminiscing over dirty laundry, and sister-in-law is preparing for the wedding day. I've had many Congrats, and so many people who have helped to put all of this planning together, and MANY who are still helping!

Of all the emotions that I have today the greatest is love. The love of my friends who are coming by and boxing up my things, while missing "the good ole days." Friends who are taking the time to get off of work to help us move into our new home. Family, old and new, supporting us, helping us, and loving us all the way. Being a part in "our" big day. To all of you, Thank You. This day wouldn't be the same without one of you! It's your day, and our day, and everyone who takes part.

Love and thanks to you all!